She would have been 88 today. I still find it hard to believe that she’s been gone 9 years.
My Mom had Alzheimers. Such a devastating disease. She was such a fun, full of life person and to watch that life get sucked out of her over the years was a very hard thing. She went through the many different stages of it…….anxiety, denial, anger, paranoia and aggressiveness….especially with my Dad. That said, once she’d gone through all those she was happy…..always a smile, laughed at everything and anything whether she understood what people were saying or not. She enjoyed music of any kind….a good old Frank Sinatra or Dean Martin (her fav!) tune would get her tapping her foot and singing along if she could.
I’m not surer what is worse….to be so totally oblivious to your surroundings and the people around you but still be happy or to have all your marbles and be physically incapable of doing the things you like because you’ve lost your strength, various other ailments that restrict your movement or the worst thing ever….losing your eye sight.
Enough sadness….although definitely great memories. These last couple of days have left me in one of those funky moods. I’m just so grateful for all that I have and need to remember that!!
It’s Tuesday so babysitting day. The plan today is the pot and pan cupboard and I’ll get to see if the new dishes are helping to keep things a little more organized…..
As much as I might complain about doing this, I really enjoy these days with the kids and helping out with whatever I can, even if it’s shortlived…..it makes me feel like I’ve accomplished something.
Must go now and slap/snap myself out of this mood….