Not sure what is going on with WordPress but I am having some issues adding new posts or pictures…..I think it has something to do with my browser being out of date or not secure enough of something….. Hopefully my brother, the expert, can sort all this out for me.
There is a new itinerary now for my trip in October. No big changes except for a couple of overnights on land while on the cruise part….one of which sounds like it will have us staying here http://www.1000nightscamp.com/gallery.html. I’m pretty excited about it….it looks so exotic.
Otherwise all is still a go at this time but the whole situation in Israel and the Gaza is being monitored and they’ll advise if there are any changes as we get closer to the date. I can’t even begin to understand all the issues going on over there, no matter how much I read….so many articles are so biased one way or the other, it’s hard to know what is truth, what is propaganda etc.
Another nice day today, so coffee on the deck again. I love these mornings….just sitting around reading and doing not much of anything!
The plan for today is to do some housework, maybe clean out the bottom drawer of Ken’s dresser and load it into another of the old suitcases…just maybe though. Later my daughter and I are going to do another Modern Family Season 4 marathon. We’ll put together a fun dinner of some sort that we can eat in front of the TV and I can get my laundry and ironing caught up while we’re watching it too.
I also have to phone a place about getting the bullnose pieces stained for my stairs. This project just isn’t moving as fast as I would like it too. My BIL is going on holidays in September so I’m hoping that we can at least get it started, finished would be nice, but I’m not going to complain one way or the other as long as it gets done. Maybe I’ll set Christmas as the end date…..should be able to meet that!
I’m also looking into condo rentals for the trip to Hawaii in April. Have found the ones I want, now just need to get all the flight dates sorted out and then we’ll be good to go. I can’t seem to find any clear information for transporting ashes, so will contact First Memorial to see if they can provide some information.
I’m so torn about the trip….I love Hawaii and so did Ken. But this is not what I thought our next trip there would be all about! Maybe it was a stupid idea, I don’t know but I’m pretty sure that if he was going to have to stay somewhere that he wouldn’t have complained about it being there. I want to be able to have a good time on this trip….all the kids and grandkids together on holidays should be a lot of fun. I’m not going to leave all of him there….I have no idea yet what to do with the rest of the ashes but I’ll figure that out eventually.
I’m sure some people think I’m a bit crazy. I haven’t made any rash decisions, so that’s a good thing but so many simple things, every day type things, seem to become bigger deals than they should be, because I let them!! I need to go back to my caregiver days when I just did things because they needed doing….and not thinking about it, just doing it…that’s how it all got done. My thoughts are still so scattered really. One minute I think I’ve got it all together and then the next I’m rethinking everything. I really don’t like this at all…..I need plans, organization, structure in my life. But staying focused on trying to get all that is still really hard. Good days and bad days or even hours….it’s like I’m not in control, which I guess I’m not really. I know everyone says time is what I need and maybe that’s all it is but for now it’s still such a rollercoaster.
My biggest fear is that people feel sorry for me! I don’t want that….perhaps empathy but definitely not pity. I would hate to be pitied and I certainly hope I don’t come across that way……I don’t think I do.
This is so true….it is MY journey!